One of my favourite bloggers Emmalina has started blogging her 30 Days of Truth so I thought I'd jump on the bandwagon! I've always wanted to start a blog and I think a bit of self exploration is the perfect excuse. So, here goes:
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
The one thing about myself that can frustrate me to tears is my apathy. When put into a highly stressful situation I fare pretty well, can make snap decisions and ride out the consequences. However when it comes to long term goals I just couldn't care less. I failed my university degree, I'm underperforming at work and my health is suffering just because I'm too lazy to do anything about it. Pathetic right? Yeh. I know that I'll start this blog with good intentions I'll aim to keep up with one post every day, but there'll be one day where I'll just think, "I've updated every day for a few days now. I'll have a break." One day will turn into two and so on and so forth until it's been so long that there's no point.
The reason I hate my apathy so much is that it is purely of my own making. I try to understand it and fight it but I don't understand why I fail which is what makes it so frustrating. I've started to get a reputation for being unreliable and it hurts because I don't want to be.
I'm going to stop writing now because I'm starting to sound like a whiny brat!
You don't sound like a whiny brat. You sound like someone who does what everyone else is doing, but you're calling yourself on it.
ReplyDeleteI do the same thing. I give up if I take a break on anything when it comes to long term. It's worse, because I try to talk about it so that I continue to plan on doing it - but then talking about it always gives me a false sense of accomplishment, so it falls to the wayside like everything else.