30 Days of Truth: Day 3

Third day posting in a row! Round of applause anyone? No?... ok.

I'm really enjoying blogging at the moment. I think having a specific topic to post on every day is helping me keep up momentum. Its fun! I find myself anxious to sit down and write my next post but I've been waiting until my boyfriend is out of the house before I start writing. Not that I'm ashamed of my little blog or anything, I just have a bad habit of revealing my intentions to people, lapping up all the praise and then failing to follow through. Anyhoo... on with today's topic!

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

When I first read the topic for today I thought I literally had nothing to write about. Yeh, I've done some pretty crappy things in my life, but I'm at peace with them all. And I believed that, until I was cooking dinner yesterday night.

I was trying out two new dishes on my fussy-eater boyfriend and it took longer than I'd expected to put everything together and serve up. When it got to the point where dinner was over an hour later than I'd promised, and still nowhere near done, I started mentally berating myself. Why hadn't I read the recipes fully? Why hadn't I cleaned the kitchen enough? Why had I left it until so late to start dinner? By the time food was actually ready I was far to angry at myself to acknowledge the compliments from my boyfriend or marvel over the fact that he'd cleared his plate of spinach and was looking for seconds.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I need to forgive myself for not being perfect. I'm not perfect and I think it would actually be impossible for me to live up to my own standards. Worst of all, my disappointment at not meeting them masks the triumphs. I'm not ready to forgive myself yet, even though I know I should.

A note on dinner.

I've been a vegetarian nearly six years now and when I first made the decision most of my family were sure I'd never stick to it. My Nan went digging into her cupboards and found an old vegetarian cookbook for me that, in the past six years, I've never used. I re-found it again this week and have committed myself to cooking a recipe from it everyday until I've made everything in it, to repay my Nan's support all those years ago. Last night I made Eggs with Spinach & Cheese Sauce and Bubble & Squeak. Yumyum!

I'm writing my 30 Days of Truth. If you are writing yours, or embarking on any culinary adventures, let me know so I can follow along!